I know it's been a long time and I do apologize to all of my readers :)))))) My vacation took me and spun me around a bit. I have been fighting to get back on track with a routine ever since. Life is becoming more productive and my motivation level has kicked in a bit so hopefully, the waves will be crashing a lot more often.
Today's blog is about how time is flying and how I am constantly trying to keep up with it. Well, sort of............Emily turned 12 years old in September and this has been a year with a lot of changes for her and for me. Halloween was one of the unexpected changes. I can remember the days when there was no question what we would be doing for Halloween. This year was a little different. Emily couldn't decide whether or not she wanted to trick or treat. She was still into dressing up and that was fun but just looking at her (almost eye to eye now) and realizing that she is growing up so much faster than I am keeping up was a real eye opener to me. It's very bitter sweet because on the one hand I am happy to see her growing into a lovely young lady but on the other hand I am not happy with her growing into a lovely young lady :) I know that it's what they do and what we need to accept as parents but it isn't easy. I can remember going through this with Michael and it was just as hard then and it really doesn't go away because this life is set up in stages. He is now 25 and living on his own and doing wonderfully (without me :) I am so proud of him and know that he is making a life for himself. I feel wonderful about Michael but it still doesn't make it any easier.
As I watched Emily trick or treat this year knowing that she is REALLY growing up, I wanted to hold onto her and keep her stuck in a moment that was very special for me. Instead of holding her back from the growing that God has intended for her to do, I will turn to my photographs and fill my heart with the joy that I can remember from all of those special moments that I hold dear :)
Emily this year just before we headed out to trick or treat :) The photographs following are just some Halloween moments from years past that I am tucking in my heart and I am not letting go :)
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4 comments:
I know just how you feel. I always wish I could pause or at least slow down each moment in time, but it passes so quickly. Too quickly!
Just take comfort knowing that you are doing a wonderful job as a mother and that Emily has a great role model.
Hugs - from one Mommy trying to hold on to each moment - to another!!!
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful girl!
I share your sentiments. I have created a mural of my favorite photos in my basement. They range from the beginning of my children's lives to the present and include grandchildren of course.
The wall serves many purposes. It shocks me how quickly time has gone by, causing me to enjoy each passing moment, holding on as you note, as if I can. Moreover, it leads me to reflect on the goodness of God, on His blessings, and on the treasures that He's bestowed upon my life.
As much as time is a thief, it is our reality, and none of us can escape the fact that it passes by all too quickly.
Thank you for your post that reminds all of us to cherish the moments, to celebrate the time that has been given to us by God, and to realize that although life is "just a vapor" it is abundant.
I love you dear friend. You are a great mama. Your children bear witness of that fact. Thank you again for the post...looking forward to your next "wave".
Cheryl
I am starting to know how you feel. I love watching Arianna grow up (and I'm so proud of her), but I loathe the inevitable. The teen years are fast approaching. I was kind of hoping that I could suspend her in time (like they did for Han Solo, or even Austin Powers), but I don't think that will work longterm. Eventually I'll have to thaw her out and she will turn into one of those "teenagers" where as parents, we will no longer be the center of their universe.
These pics melt my heart! She is just too sweet and I love how you cherish her. I wish all daughters had a mom like you, and I know it isn't easy letting go little by little... but I bet its worth it. :)
Sarah <><
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